Tuesday, October 14, 2008

not quite so growed up yet

I think the thing I've hated the most about growing up is being faced with the stark reality that my parents are mortal. That, as I get older, they will continue to prove their mortality through illness and frailty. I love, love, love my mom. And I need her even more. I wish I could take back all the teenage angst I poured toward her and replace it with the admiration and gratitude I should have shown. I wish I could grow older and she could stay just the same--have her there to be proud or disappointed with everything I do.

It's a wish that makes me realize that I really have grown up, a good bit. But I still have a lot more growing up to do.

5 comments:

sarahsookyung said...

I often have the same thought lately, about my parents. How sad that loved ones have to die. Too bad we aren't immortal elves. Sometimes I just want to move closer to home so I can spend more time there, and support them.

The Owl Archimedes said...

I miss you too jesster! Don't grow up to much while I'm gone please!

-the Analogy-Hater Poser

The Owl Archimedes said...

I miss you too jesster! Don't grow up to much while I'm gone please!

-the Analogy-Hater Poser

The Owl Archimedes said...

I miss you too jesster! Don't grow up to much while I'm gone please!

-the Analogy-Hater Poser

The Owl Archimedes said...

oops, I'm echoing again.