One thing I hate about med school is: you're always being evaluated. I pride myself on doing a pretty good job my 1st and 2nd years of not really caring too much about grades and scores, and I did a really great job of staying away from the kind of people who did care. But on the wards it's impossible to just take care of our patients and ignore the fact that we're being scrutinized at every moment. Being put under scrutiny is very anxiety-provoking, especially when what you're being evaluated on is if you have aptitude to be a good doctor. Because you can't really study for that. You can practice, but if you fail Medicine, it's sort of like: what the hell am I doing with my life? And did I make the right career choice?
Fortunately, I like what I do and I'm competent at it, and I feel like I learn more and more each day. But boy, am I tired. I've worked 48 hours this week and it's still Thursday. Which to most people would mean TGIF!, but nope, I don't get Saturday off. School has turned into a job, with the exception that school does not pay and, in fact, I am paying it for allowing me to learn as I slave away in a fishbowl of scrutiny. All in the name of medical education. I'm usually loving the experience, but as I embark on Week 6 of the 8 total weeks in Adult Inpatient Medicine, it's starting to feel a little bit cumbersome. Three more weeks! I can do it!
Which brings me to: I think I've decided I want to be a pediatrician!!!! Or some sort of pediatric-trained physician. Peds makes me happy, and I never wrote any tired blog posts during my time at Children's, that's for sure. I'm curious: what do y'all think about this pseudo-decision?
4 comments:
No good.
There are only going to be so many doctors in the family and I can't have two of them overlapping by doing baby stuff. I suggest ENT so I can call every time I get a stuffy nose or sore throat.
Plus if a troll comes to the hospital looking for babies to eat, pediatrics is the last place you want to be. Don't ever pick a job without first thinking about where you'll be when the baby eating trolls come around!
as long as the crying kids don't bother you too much. So no surgery huh? Would you have your own clinic or would you work at a large hospital? What other sort of pediatric-trained physician career is there?
My arm is internally bleeding Jess! I had to get a blood test done today, but the doctors here are so incompetent, they can't even pull some blood without bursting my capillaries (I think that's what happened)! Now I've got this disgusting rashy-looking red spot/bruise on my arm. I bet you could have done better!
keep on trucking, dude, it's almost over! 3 weeks, and then you can have a fun halloween party to celebrate.
you'd be great with kids!
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